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  “Very nice!” chirped Honorine. “And your papa…Where is he?”

  His smile seemed almost forced as he shifted his gaze to Honorine. “Father is in the green salon.”

  Honorine’s face lit in a wreath of smiles. “Ah! I shall wish him bonsoir,” she announced, and started off down the corridor as if she owned the house, leaving Sophie quite alone with Hamilton.

  She smiled sheepishly as he placed her hand in the crook of his arm. “I look forward to introducing you around. You may recognize a face or two.”

  “How lovely,” she muttered. Bloody marvelous, she thought. As they moved down the corridor, her stomach turned to knots; she felt conspicuously foolish and out of place. Even her gown seemed all wrong—it was a peculiar shade of blue and rather plain, save the overly colorful embroidery along the hem. She would have preferred something a little less matronly, but as usual, her choices had been made for her. This was an all too familiar sense of discomfort—she felt trussed up like a Christmas goose, as if she were once again on parade before a dozen potential suitors. The only difference between tonight and nights just like it eight years past was the attention Hamilton was paying her. Was she imagining things, or had his lips lingered too long on her hand? Was he truly looking at her in a way that seemed to burn a hole right through her? She had seen men look at Honorine that way—but never her.

  She stole a glimpse of her escort from the corner of her eye. With his hand protectively covering hers, a little smile on his lips, he actually looked quite pleased to be with her. And as if to prove it, he suddenly paused just outside the door Honorine had swept into, motioned the footman to shut it, and turned to face her fully, stepping so close that she could see the intricate folds of his cravat. “I am very pleased you have come, Lady Sophie,” he said, his breath warm on her lips, “Very pleased. You are different now, I think. Grown up, mature. I am sure you must understand how a man may desire a woman like you.”

  Sophie instantly recoiled backward, bumping into the wall behind her. Hamilton smiled at her discomposure and straightened, nodding at the footman who manned the door. Her head was spinning; she hardly noticed the footman push the double walnut doors open and step aside. The implication behind Hamilton’s words was inconceivable to her; all of her instincts told her to beware—

  But all that was lost the moment she caught sight of the more than two dozen heads swiveling as one in her direction. Her knees betrayed her immediately as he led her across the threshold and into that sea of faces. Some, she recognized, others blurred with faded memories that struggled to revive themselves in her mind. As Hamilton escorted her deeper into the room, some of them leaned into their companions, whispering.

  She knew it instantly—her scandal was not forgotten, not for a bloody moment. Her face felt hot; Sophie wondered if she might possibly even faint as Hamilton introduced her to Lord and Lady Pritchet.

  As he led her on to the next guest, she surreptitiously tried to find Honorine in the crowd. Where was Honorine? Her stomach was churning furiously now as Hamilton pulled her deeper into the pit of vipers—“You recall Lady Sophie Dane? She’s been abroad.”—the knowing smiles, the expressions of condescension were suffocating, but there was no escape, only more guests. Sophie was acutely aware that they all whispered their casual slander about her, eyeing her critically, no doubt trying to detect a crack in the facade, perhaps even hoping she might entertain them by crumbling beneath the weight of her shame before their very eyes.

  By the time they reached the back of the room, Sophie was numb.

  “I’d like to introduce you to my father, if you please,” Hamilton said.

  Mute, she nodded. At least she would have the pleasure of meeting the object of Honorine’s unabashed love.

  Hamilton turned toward a small alcove. A footman moved away; Sophie caught sight of Honorine’s colorful skirts and felt a sense of relief. But as she moved around Hamilton, her smile faded in her confusion.

  Lord Hamilton was seated in a chair with wheels designed for the infirm. One hand was curled unnaturally around a pen in what looked like a death grip; the other was covered with a lap rug, which also concealed his legs, leaving only one foot to protrude at an awkward angle.

  And he was smiling up at Honorine.

  “Sofia! You will try this champagne, non?” Honorine trilled upon seeing Sophie, and snatched two flutes from the tray of a passing footman, as if nothing were amiss, as if she fell in love with frail men every day. They had said Lord Hamilton was ill, not incapacitated!

  Sophie took the flute as Hamilton leaned down to his father, very nearly drinking the whole thing in an effort to hide her shock. She looked to Honorine for some explanation, but the woman was lost in Lord Hamilton.

  “Lady Sophie, you remember my father, do you not?”

  Sophie dragged her gaze from Honorine to Lord Hamilton; he had shifted in his mobile chair and was looking up at her. “Of course!” she said brightly, and was suddenly struck with the indecision of what to do with her hand. Dear God, did she offer her hand?

  Lord Hamilton answered that dilemma by extending a wobbling hand to her. She instantly shoved her flute at Honorine and took the man’s hand in hers. “IT IS A PLEASURE TO SEE YOU AGAIN, MY LORD.”

  “There is no need for this shouting,” Honorine said matter-of-factly.

  “L-Lady S-Sophie,” he stuttered. “A p-pleasure to see you.”

  “Thank you,” she murmured self-consciously as he withdrew his hand from hers.

  “How f-fortunate you are t-to accompany M-Madame F-Fortier.”

  “Yes, indeed.”

  Honorine beamed like a Yuletide candle. “Monsieur Hamilton,” she sighed like a girl, “merveilleux!”

  All right, the woman had finally gone round the bend and lost her foolish French mind. Hamilton was undoubtedly thinking the very same thing, for Sophie could feel the tension emanating from his body as he presented his back to Honorine. “My father is actually much improved since suffering the seizure,” he said, almost apologetically as Honorine leaned down to whisper something in the viscount’s ear.

  “I had no idea,” Sophie responded, still flustered. “When did it happen?”

  “Several weeks past. Actually, it seems rather long ago now.” He smiled thinly, looked at the mantel clock. “Ah, it is almost the supper hour, Lady Sophie. If you will excuse me, I would see to it that everything has been arranged.” He bowed politely and stepped away.

  Honorine tugged at the sleeve of her gown. “You see? This supper, it is pleasant,” she said cheerfully.

  Pleasant? She thought this was pleasant? Sophie dragged her gaze from the crowded room to stare at Honorine in utter disbelief. Flashing a quick smile at Lord Hamilton, she grabbed Honorine’s arm and pulled her aside. “Have you lost your mind?” she whispered hotly. “This is the man to whom, just yesterday, you declared your undying devotion?”

  Taken aback, Honorine blinked. “Oui,” she said simply, and saints above, the woman actually blushed.

  “Do you think that you might have at least mentioned his infirmity? God, Honorine, what are you thinking?”

  That remark only served to get Honorine’s back up. One hand went to her hip; she frowned darkly, and Sophie was suddenly and keenly aware that everyone in the room seemed to be watching them. “You speak as if he is nothing!” she snapped. “This…this infirmité, as you call it, it has only his body!”

  “And madness has yours,” Sophie muttered under her breath, glancing covertly around them.

  Oh, wonderful, here approached more good tidings.

  Lady Pritchet was making her way toward them, her daughter Charlotte in tow. Sophie remembered Charlotte as someone who had suffered the fate she most assuredly would have met had she not eloped. As no one of suitable caliber was interested in making Charlotte a wife, she had, finally, in her twenty-sixth year, been taken off the shelf and married to a Scottish baron. When Sophie made her debut, it was well known that Charlotte was the man’s wi
fe in name only; he apparently kept to Scotland and his mistress, and Charlotte to her mother.

  As they approached, Sophie quickly discarded the argument over Lord Hamilton and murmured to Honorine a cautionary “en garde.”

  Lady Pritchet came to an abrupt halt in front of them and eyed Honorine openly and critically. One thing was certain—the woman’s bitter countenance had not changed even a whit in all these years.

  Shifting her pinched gaze to Sophie, Lady Pritchet practically sneered. “Lady Sophie,” she said, as she took in her gown. “You’ve been abroad.”

  “Yes I have, Lady Pritchet, in the company of Madame Fortier.”

  “Bonsoir,” sang Honorine.

  “Bonsoir,” responded Charlotte with a smile.

  “Perhaps you had opportunity to take in the sights of Rome? I found the Colosseum to be quite grand,” Lady Pritchet remarked, now eyeing Honorine.

  “We were actually longer in Venice,” Sophie clarified.

  “Venice?” asked a woman behind them.

  Honestly, could this night possibly become any more monstrous? Apparently so—Miss Melinda Birdwell had seen fit to join them.

  “Truly?” drawled Melinda, arching one sculpted brow over the other. “I’ve heard Venice is quite decadent.”

  “Ooh, oui, oui,” Honorine readily agreed with a little laugh and a wink for Melinda. “Beaucoup décadent.”

  A tiny mewl of surprise escaped Charlotte; Lady Pritchet’s sneer deepened. But Melinda merely smiled. “We so look forward to hearing tales of your décadent adventure over supper.”

  All right, then, there it was—this would be the longest night of Sophie’s life.

  In the end, however, she couldn’t be entirely certain what was the worst part of the whole affair. The awful supper in which everyone around her attempted to ask—under the guise of polite conversation, of course—about her ignoble past? Have you by chance seen Sir William? Oh, I suppose he is still in Spain? Or Honorine’s peculiar and unabashed adoration of Lord Hamilton? Or perhaps Hamilton’s seeming fixation with her?

  In between her attempts to fend off the many intrusive questions put to her, Sophie caught herself exchanging several looks with Trevor Hamilton. His smile, she noticed, was rather infectious, and she began to feel a little self-conscious of it. Impossible though it was, the man was actually flirting with her! How terribly ironic that was—eight years ago, Sophie would have delivered her entire fortune for just one favorable glance from Hamilton.

  Now, it made her feel strange—his attentions were too curious, too uncharacteristic for someone who had once been one of the ton’s most eligible bachelors. And it didn’t help, naturally, that she could not push the image of Caleb from her mind’s eye. Why hadn’t he come today? She could imagine him here, much more comfortable than she, sharing a secret jest with her over some of the things being said, conversing with the others.

  But it was Honorine’s peculiar and unabashed esteem of Lord Hamilton that fascinated Sophie the most. Even though she could clearly see now that her initial assessment of his ability had been too harsh, he was still hardly the sort of man to whom Honorine was typically drawn.

  Not only was Honorine drawn to him, she was making a scene.

  She doted on him over supper, monopolized his attention. It was painfully obvious that no one seated around the table could take his eyes from her. Sophie desperately wanted to stand from her seat, walk the length of the table to where Honorine sat cheerfully babbling with Lord Worthington and Lord Hamilton, lean over her shoulder, and inform her that she was behaving like an imbecile. Unfortunately, she could hardly do such a thing without making the scene worse.

  The minutes stretched into hours.

  After supper, when the ladies had at last retired to the drawing room while the men had their port, Sophie attempted to put Honorine off to one side where it would be inconvenient for her to engage in conversation with anyone. She might very well have succeeded had not the very affable Mrs. Churchton begun a discourse on the secrets of the Hamilton family, beginning with what sounded like a very unhappy marriage between Lord and Lady Hamilton, and ending with her conjecture that the rumors of an illegitimate son were true.

  Sophie’s heart clutched at the mention of Caleb; Melinda pounced on Mrs. Churchton’s remark with gusto.

  “Do tell, Mrs. Churchton!” she exclaimed, smiling conspiratorially at those around her. “I’ve often heard it said there was a bastard son, but I never thought it true!”

  “Oh, it is quite true,” Mrs. Churchton sniffed with much authority. “Lord Hamilton spent several years abroad. They say the mother is French.”

  Everyone turned to Mrs. Churchton; Sophie, too, inched to the edge of her seat.

  “It’s been thirty years or more, but when Lady Hamilton was with child, Lord Hamilton took to the Continent, where he remained until little Trevor was three years or so. Only then did he return, though I daresay they never reconciled, not really. Lady Hamilton died a very lonely woman, I assure you.”

  “But has anyone ever seen this illegitimate son?” Melinda pressed. “Could he possibly be the same man who has recently appeared in town claiming to be the illegitimate son?”

  “I wouldn’t know,” Mrs. Churchton responded as she casually plumped the ringlets above her ears. “There are those who claim Lord Hamilton traveled to France twice yearly to see his bastard son. And there are others who insist that he was actually at home in the country during those periods. I daresay no one can say for certain who this man is, and it hardly matters any longer, does it? The poor viscount can’t remember much a’tall, and physically, he is hardly more than an empty shell—”

  “Do not speak this of him!” snapped Honorine, who had been uncharacteristically quiet up until that point.

  Sophie clamped a warning hand down on Honorine’s wrist but she shook it off, startling Sophie with her abruptness and the fire suddenly blazing in her eyes. “This man, he hears your speech, he sees how you look to him! He is not dead; he lives and he breathes!”

  That heated pronouncement was met with deadly quiet. But the silence hardly quelled Honorine’s temper—if anything, it made her angrier. “Look at you!” she continued hotly. “How you sit in his home, eat his food, drink his wine, and still, you say such hateful things! Mon Dieu!”

  “I beg your pardon, Madame Fortier,” Mrs. Churchton said hoarsely. “I certainly did not intend to offend your sensibilities so greatly!”

  “Of course not,” said Melinda, turning smoothly in her seat to face Honorine with all superiority. “But you do not know Lord Hamilton, Madame Fortier. We have been acquainted with him for many years and we do not deceive ourselves. May the Lord have mercy on him, but he is a mere shadow of the man he once was.”

  “You are wrong,” Honorine said low.

  Sophie knew that voice, came instantly to her feet, and stepped in front of Honorine before she erupted. “It is indeed a tragedy,” she said quickly, “but surely nothing on which we should dwell at the moment. Lady Sanderhill, I recall with great fondness your skill on the pianoforte. Would you be so kind to reacquaint us all with your talent?”

  That woman blushed prettily, fussed a little with her collar as she stood. “I should be delighted,” she said, and moved to the pianoforte, oblivious to the murderous look Melinda cast Honorine.

  But both women had resumed their seats by the time the men rejoined them, and to all outward appearances seemed enraptured by the song Lady Sanderhill played. When Lord Sanderhill stood to join his wife in a duet, Sophie slipped to the far side of the room, away from the ever-watchful eyes of Melinda Birdwell.

  Hamilton followed her.

  He stood behind her, quietly leaning over her shoulder as the singers began, his spicy scent filling her nostrils.

  “Lady Sophie, I should very much like to show you my father’s gardens one day,” he whispered. “He spent years building them and they are among the finest in all of London.”

  Caleb’s likeness s
lipped into her mind, and a little shiver ran down Sophie’s spine. Where was he? Why hadn’t he come? “Perhaps one day,” she whispered.

  “I shall consider that a promise.”

  She couldn’t help herself—Sophie glanced at him over her shoulder. His gaze boldly dipped to the low neckline of her gown, and Sophie felt the shiver again, only stronger than before, and shifted away from his pointed gaze. That gaze…she had experienced that gaze before. William Stanwood had looked at her like that, a sort of wolfish look. A thought that perhaps he was more like Stanwood than she knew flitted across her mind—and perhaps, like Stanwood, his interest was really in her bank account, not her breasts.

  “Until then,” he said, and she watched him move away, his hands clasped nonchalantly behind his back.

  But Sophie quickly forgot her vague suspicion and thought of Caleb, wished Hamilton were Caleb, and her heart suddenly felt as if it weighed one hundred stone.

  As the Sanderhills droned on with their cheerful little duet, she took a window seat, staring into the dark night that engulfed Bedford Square, her heart and mind full of Caleb.

  In the middle of Bedford Square, Caleb flicked a cheroot to the path, ground it out with the heel of his boot as he idly watched Hamilton’s guests through the enormous windows of the salon. From where he stood, he could see most of their activity and smiled to himself, imagining the agony of sitting through the duet that was being sung. There was a time he might have been jealous of the fine living to which Trevor was accustomed, but at the moment, he only wanted to know about his father.

  He shifted his gaze once again to the window seat where Sophie sat staring so wistfully out over the square. He had not recognized her when she first appeared and had peered so forlornly out the window. But she had looked familiar, and he had risen from the bench on which he had passed the evening, walked slowly to the edge of the square to have a better look.

  The recognition had unnerved him in a strange sort of way. Even though he knew she lived nearby, he had not realized, had not even thought that Sophie might be acquainted with his father, and certainly not his brother. The very idea made him oddly angry. He did not want her to know them, did not want her involved with them in any way. She was the treasure he had found in the park, the woman who had intrigued him above all others, and he did not want her anywhere near Trevor Hamilton.